Fairy Tale vs. Reality

So lately, I have really been contemplating "marriage". What it means, what I thought it would be like, and what it actually is.

I knew that I always wanted to be married young. I also knew I wanted to be a younger mom (not yet!), so in order for that to happen, I wanted a few quality years in with my husband before kids came into the picture, so in turn, I wanted to be married young. Now, I didn't always think my plan would be God's plan, but luckily, it was :) So with that being my case, marriage for me is a bit different. I find it very interesting how we just take on things and make decisions. I know it doesn't sound interesting, it's normal!, but to me, it's odd sometimes! I think a lot of that is because I never had to make those kinds of decisions, because I was still in school and was being financially supported by my parents. So I'm not sure if this is a marriage thing or real world thing. Anyways, it's still very fun! I even find myself sometimes with a smirk on my face after a "real" decision has been made. It's quite empowering if I do say so myself!

The other thing is what I expected marriage to be like. I think I really thought the world stopped revolving for a little while! After all the planning, and finally the day, and then the honeymoon, I guess I thought the rest of the world was in on it too! I mean, it's all I did! Well, me and my mom :) But after the honeymoon, reality set back in for Derrick as he returned to work, but not for me! Being unemployed, I was able to go and spend all the money we got and re-decorate! It was awesome! I think Bed, Bath, and Beyond and Belk know me by name. That could be good or bad! So once I was finally employed (praise Jesus!) I realized that the world was still revolving! However, I feel very lucky to have been able to get our place organized. For those of you who know me, I'm pretty OCD when it comes to cleanliness and organization. So it was really great. Even more so once I realized how little time I would have when I started working.

And the last part.... we haven't been married for years. I guess I expected marriage to be like my parents'. Or other people who have been married for x-amount of years. I guess it never occurred to me that once we got married, it would take some time for the normalcy to come! It sounds ridiculous, but it's so true! I assumed we would automatically know exactly what to do in every situation. Either my parents put on a really good show, or they really do know exactly what to do! Maybe it's both. I just find it interesting that my parents, your parents, whomever parents, all started off as newlyweds too. I knew this, but a different light has been shed on it, being a newlywed.

Needless to say, marriage has been a lot different than I expected. Not necessarily in a bad way. It's very refreshing. For me, it was the next, normal step. It never felt out of the ordinary really. I was ready for it. But that doesn't mean it's not different than what I thought! For a long time Derrick and I would talk about how it didn't feel very different! We were waiting for one of those euphoric moments when we look at the other and think, " WHAT?! We're married?!" That didn't happen..... I was waiting for it too! But now, I realize it's more than that. It's 2 people, still living life, still in a revolving world, enjoying each other along the way. And I like that :)