In Memory Of....

So it's been a while :) Life has been good... busy but good! Since  so many of you have followed our journey to  children, I found it was only fitting to update you on how I recently have honored our angel babies! 

I turned 30 on Monday. I really was dreading it, and I still don't love it, but turns out 30 feels a lot like 29 :) I guess I'm more legit now, too :) Anyways, I have always said I wanted to get a tattoo.... and recently, I was saying I was going to do it when I turned 30. In recent months, I quit talking about it so much because I was scared I might not actually go through with it, so I decided to just wait it out. The older I get, the more scared I get to do things (except let my tags expire... it lets me live on the edge :)). Anyways, I'm here to say "I DID IT!!!" 

Over the years, I've gone back and forth about what I wanted to have tattooed. I always said I wanted the word "faith". I just have always felt like I needed faith to get through anything that comes my way. That's a pretty general term. When we were having our struggle with staying pregnant, I really clung to Psalms 46:10, "“Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world.” (NLT). I constantly was quoting that first part in my head. It just helped me have faith and get through. So as time has gone on, I decided that was just a bit more of a specific way to have "faith" tattooed somewhere. Over the course of the last few  months, I saw a few friends post about tattoos they had to honor their miscarriages. In a sense, mine already was, but I also wanted  something a little more specific. 

I decided on 3 little hearts, to honor Jessie, Lincoln,  and Myrtle :) 

I'll be honest though, I wasn't sure I wanted to commit because I still struggle with the idea that we could have more miscarriages in the future. But I ultimately decided I wasn't going to live that way, and if that happens, I'll figure out how I want to handle that! Be still... right?

Also, check out that swelling! eek!  It definitely didn't feel good and I don't  expect I'll be getting a sleeve anytime soon, but I did it, it wasn't THAT bad, and I love it! 

 Check out the transformation.... ha :)

  

( I got a fitbit for my birthday, too!)

Oh, and in case you're thinking I'm super hardcore over there (over my small tattoo :)), I threw up twice the day of, in anticipation of this :) So there's that... :)  

Also... if you're just tuning in...  You can go here for where our journey began